Virgin

I'm new at this so bare with me for a while. I have never kept a diary or written a blog before and don't really know where to begin, I should start at the beginning really! But to be honest with you I do not know where the beginning of this story, my life is?

• is it the moment I was conceived by two drunken underage teenagers in the back of a car by South-end peer? (my mother has informed me my father kept his socks on!) 
• being abandoned by my mother when she ran away and left me with the person that was my dad but not my father?
• when my dads new wife abused me physically and mentally?
• when she got bored with me and put me in to care taking me away from my dad and my little sisters?
• the return of her my mother?
• possibly being given back to her?
• the time i was almost killed by my stepfather?
• the years of living in a high rise council block?
• or the moment I discovered I like boys not girls?
• My 2nd dad?
• back into care again!
• living with Nan and Grandads my foster carers
• my father appears at 15!
• school?
• grandads cancer and being sent back hers
• a death in the family
• fuck me nan married grandads brother!
• coming out?
• Homelessness!
• Sex? Drugs and on the dole.
• the fist time i saw him?
• loosing my virginity?
• the moment i fell in love?
• the ponit in which i became complacent and aggressive and violent and lost him?
• the night in the cells
• bug-hunting and rent?
• meeting the other and a realisation 
• an open relationship
• college
• oh he's back what a head fuck
• revenge
• in love with 2 men?
• Univercity
• the other one is the one I truly love
• failing?
• or could it be next Thursday?

Now I know that seems a lot of places that i could start, but i need to start somewhere so it will at the beginning, but i think its gonna take some time to tell, to lay my self naked upon the world and be honest to myself and relive through memories that I have struggled to suppress. I have avoided taking this journey until now, but i think its time i be honest with myself a record and relive what has made me, me and what will continue to form and shape the person that I will become.